mkay so summer is not turning out as I had expected

but i guess its pretty awesome anyway so it doesn't matter

I had 3 birthday parties, one with my family, one my friends threw as a surprise because one guy wasn't going to be in town for the party I was throwing, and one that I threw for myself
and I have to say that my friends are totally and completely awesome

so this is the first summer in like 5 years that I don't have a job, and I'm feeling incredibly unproductive
this weekend my mother and I made something like 50 jars of blackberry jam. We have this tradition of going up to this blackberry farm in Santa Cruz and picking berries to make into jam. Well this year we picked around 30 pounds of berries, which is a ridiculous amount since it took us two entire days to make them all into jam. yeah, it was fun for the first day, after that I was sick of blackberries and sugar and heat

I think I'm going to update more, but don't count on it, I suck at life

Pretty sure I need to stop getting cd's at the library. I now have something like 300 songs on my iTunes that I have yet to listen to. heh. Besides that I think the library is running low on their supply of good cds.

High Fidelity is my new favorite movie. I couldn't really tell you why, but part of it is that I love John Cusack and another part is that he owns a record store. <3

um.
so my parents might be going out of town in two weeks. Which means my brother will be throwing a major drunken party at my house. But this time I'm going to have my friends over too, since some of them actually drink too. Thats so weird to think about.

I'm off to listen to my new cds

Everyone needs to listen to Bonny Taylor Shakedown by Hellogoodbye
because
I like to think its about me

LOL

but really its because my dad used to sing me My Bonnie lies Over the Ocean, and it kind of ruined the song for me...BUT NO LONGER!

because Hellogoodbye is awesome

so yeah...go listen

Since homecoming I have grown to a dress size 10 instead of an 8....x_x

but its okay!

I look damn good in prom dresses

and I'm not concieted at all...

of course not

I love love love vacations!
we get the whole week off for President's week

so far I have been doing nothing but reading and downloading music

and tomorrow I'm going to see Walk the Line avec mon ami
it should be fun as I havn't see him in awhile and i've wanted to see Walk the Line since December

but I really want to go to San Fransisco to look for prom dresses =(

sooo yesterday was the first rehersal for the Damn Yankee's band.
oh crap, is all i have to say.
basically the only person who could play their parts was my teacher's MOTHER, who is playing the piano. granted everyone was sightreading but still. i don't know how we're going to do it all.

I need to work on my conducting x10000000000000000000

yeah.

but today I finally get to see a Mock Trial competition. I've been waiting for this since like last year when mock trial took over the lives of everyone around me! it was crazyy

hopefully it will be as cool as they make it out to be.

I've been meaning to type this up for forever, I just...didn't...o_o


so, Saterday I went to San Fransisco. I went with my mom and my aunt who was visiting from Arizona because they really wanted to visit their friend from high school who had recently moved there. I wanted to go because 1) I wanted to meet one of my mom's high school friends, i seriously can't imagine her in high school so I was interested and 2) its San Fransisco duh. so, basically we drove up there, found parking after like 10 minutes of searching, we walked to her apartment (which was tinzy) ate lunch with her, talked for like an hour (mostly boring stuff) went out walking, saw a Cathedral, Union Square, all the good things. Then we rode a trolly back to the side of town where my mom's friend lives and it was so awesome cause it was dark and I was hanging off the edge of a trolly. It was just like the movies. :D

The Cathedral was beautiful as well. It was huge and had everything pretty and it made me want to sing really badly. idk, the hugeness was just calling out for opera voices or something and I wanted to satisfy it. LOL


I also found out my mom once dated a guy named Buzzy.


....



Buzzy? wtf kind of name is that?

yeah

I was going to type up all about this lady's divorce cause it was really sad and reminded me a lot of high school drama, but I dont really want to right now.
maybe later


so that was my trip to San Fransisco. The End.

so what do you do when someone tells you they were seriously thinking of suicide like two weeks ago?
cause I sure as hell didn't know

so I was talking to Jay and said something to the effect of the world sucks and all of a sudden he's just says we're not talking anymore and signed off
I was like...wtf?
lately people have been signiing off on me =(
but it wasn't that bad, he came back on later to tell me something else and said he was a bad influence on me LOL
like I wouldn't have come to the realization that the world is not nice without him?
oh so silly

I cannot wait until finals are over and people's emotions return to a normal lever, lately its been crazy!

I'm excited. I'm excited for the future. I want to know whats going to happen to us and I want to know now, but i also want to experience the journey because just knowing the end of a story doesn't make it good, its knowing the pain and heartache and jubilation and suffering and laughter in between that makes the endings so perfect. and I just can't wait to experience it all.

I always feel like life starts after you're out of school. I know logically that that's not true but I subconsciously I'm waiting until my life starts to analyze and make sense of my life. idk, is it supposed to be like this? they say that its during your teenage years that you really figure out who you are and what you want to be and all that jazz but i don't see how anyone has time to figure that out. unless my personality and style are meant to be determined by decisions that take 5 seconds to make but that was never how I envisioned it happening. Maybe I was just hoping for an epiphany to explain to me what being me is all about

Right now I want to be able to look back on my life as a whole and cherish the moments without ruining the story for myself. I also want to watch all my friends become the famous and successful people I know they are going to be. I want to be able to share in you successes because I know how talented you all are and what great people you are and what great things you're going to do for the world.

so that was my epiphany on epiphany day. what was yours?

Okay so its late but whatev. I had homework to do.

New Years Resolutions for Bonnie, Lena, and Sindhoo

1. Excersize at least once a week.

2. Get B's on all our finals

3. read the whole Harry Potter series at least once more

4. Get dates for prom

5.Run for ASB (Bonnie and Sindhoo only even though Lena really should run so that we would at least have one class together)

6. Get college applications in on time.

7. Don't suffer from senioritis and fail all our classes

8. Don't crash

9. Always remember "in sha la"

 

I am born on the same day as Matthew Lewis
holy fucking shit
how did i not know that before now?
thats SO COOL!

So last night I was playing with some scissors... and it ended up that my "bangs" look more like bangs.( picture )

I finished my christmas shopping!
except for the ones for the sisterhood of seven (i'm going to call us that now because sisterhood of the travelling shoebag just sounds insane)
and I would have bought all those presents only i still havn't come up with a totally cool idea for those...i'm not that good at coming up with cool themes

My mom and I put up our christmas lights too, so my house looks festive, but we still dont have twinkle lights. I dont understand why my mom will not buy me twinkle lights, i think she secretly has a thing agains twinkling. I don't get it. On the other hand she also has four free movie passes so really nothing she can do will make me mad at her. I've been planning to go to the movies for ever but we never did so now i'm dying to go.

I'm loving vacation.

I just realized how much I love the Little Mermaid and Beauty and the Beast

I'm such a procrastinator! I got up so ready to do my homework, then i decided i needed to take a shower. Then i ate breakfast, then I did some homework but my mom had gone out to get the ingredients to make fudge. Then i ate lunch and tried to do more homework but i couldn't concentrate until i made fudge, so i did. its really good! and now i'm watching The Little Mermaid :D

Only one more week until schools out!
i love chistmas :D

List three random facts about yourself that your friends might not know. And then tag five other friends to do it.

1. For the last few weeks I've been eating tons of veggies and fruit and just all around eating healthy.  And I've been taking like hour long walks with my dog every night after swim lessons. which means that along with swim lessons I've been getting more excersize than I ever have in my life.

2. I am ashamed of myself because I bought Hollister pants. I only did it because they were only $15

3. I'm a different person during the summer.  All summer long I hang out with people who are genuinly sweet and caring and I think it rubs off a little.  During the summer I can be working my ass off but I'm still happy while doing it.  I mean, I know I can tell almost anyone who works at westgate every detail of my life and they won't make me feel  stupid, the same goes for everyone there and that feeling just makes my whole personality better.

I'm going to keep going...

4. I think a guy I've known since like 6th grade is really hot, he go goes to Mitty, plays polo, works at westgate. is so hott

5. It hasn't hit me that summer is almost over.  I suppose it will at orientation. how sad =(

6. you know those Veet bladeless rasors?  they're terrible! you're supposed to put this stuff on your legs which is somewhat like Nair leave it on until all your hair falls out but you can't leave it on for more than 6 minutes or you could be chemically burned (safe huh?) then after that you can't put lotion on for 24 hours and you can't go swimming!?!?! its so unpractical its riddiculous

7. I'm in the process of redoing my room.  at the moment all my pictures are framed, my new bookcase is almost done and i'm trying to find a black and white checkered comforter.  I'm excited.

8. I love my scooter.

9. I'm really really super uber excited for band camp.  Its going to be really fun and I actually get to lead things this year since I am now an upperclassman ('07 wo0t) and i just can't wait

10. My friend told a semi-hot british guy from westmont that I was "fit" which according to him means hot in british slang.  Then me and my friend spent the rest of the afternoon saying how fit everyone around us was. it was really amusing.

kay i think i'm out of cool facts about me.

I WILL NEVER LET ANYONE TELL ME BAND CAMP IS STUPID!
 
that was the most fun time i've had all summer. is was so awesome and i want to talk about it but i know no one really cares that much so this gives you the opportunity to ignore me kay? We learned how to conduct and march through a parade (v. tiring) and call a drill down (in case you've forgotten thats when soneone calls a series of commands and the last people who've done all of them correct wins) and just oh gosh it was so fun! xl;kcbfd;bkd;kjvcn

So me and Aubrey roomed together in a really uncomfortable dorm room but that didn't really matter since we spent 8 hours at most in the room and we were just trying to sleep. but they had community bathrooms and showers which was kinda gross :/ abd when we had time off from classes we played cards with these two guys who were so cool. they were absolutly hilarious and every night we played charades and it wasn't one of those dumb games of charades this was fun. everyone joined in and you didn't have to act it if you didn't want to cause everyone there was so ready to take the spotlight and just everyone there was really outgoing but in an "i really want to be your best friend" kinda way if that makes sense and even our classes were so awesome.

Even the classes there were awesome.  my primary class was novice corps and almost everyone in that class was exceedingly cool and it was like everyone was instant friends there (that was where we met DJ and Ray). and everyone was so supportive of everyone else that it was like the perfect learning environment. We learned how to do good cues and volume changes and use facial expressions and one handed cut offs and everything. But when you've been conducting for three or four hours your arms hurt like hell. the worst part of it was they had us march around in a circle beating time (conducting in two way over your head) for the length of two marches (about 6-8) minutes. i swear i could not lift my arms for the life of me after that.

okay i lost my train of thought..

i hate wisdom teeth. they should make you wise, not in pain. I hate dentists and anyone who wants to stick their fingers in my mouth, its gross. i do like pain killers though. pain killers are my best friend. i know youre going to think this is gross but the last tooth they took out, i was starting to wake up so i felt them grind it up and pull it out of my gums. it didn't hurt until later though since i was completely numb but it was so gross!

tearsxfromxeyes

i just wanted to see what color i was

and because I'm really sick of studying...

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:

1. Bonnie
2. Prongs
3. James

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:

1. elvenchic89 *snickers at my stupidity*
2. xDay I Die
3. xshot to hellx

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

1. I can usually get away with being really lazy
2. I can insult people ^____^
3. my eyes o_o

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

1. lazyness
2. stupidity
3. conceitedness

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:

1. british
2. british
3. british

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:

1. Spiders -- they move funny
2. Being Alone -- been alone too much before
3. Failing miserably -- i hate having one thing that i just can't do right

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:

1. A Phone -- I've become addicted
2. Lena and Sindhoo -- mucho <3
3. ...Food?

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:

1. Jeans
2. Sweatshirt
3. stripy socks!

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:

1. Studying harder
2. Getting in shape
3. Being Nicer ..I'm starting to feel bad x_x

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):

1. He has to be able to make me laugh.
2. He should be around when I need to see him or talk to him
3. Security, I want to know he won't randomly come tell me I'm not good enough for him.

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE

1. whats the point?
2. anyone who reads this
3. obviously already knows me too well

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:

1. Eyes -- like ohmygod sexy eyes
2. Hair -- nice hair I don't really care what kind just as long as it looks good on him
3. Arms -- strong muscley arms...thats so hot

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:

1. think..
2. my head...
3. hurts x_x

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:

1. Reading
2. Watching movies
3. Listening/playing music

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:

1. Sleep
2. talk to Mann (Sindhoo don't say a word)
3. move out.

THREE CAREERS YOU'VE CONSIDERED;

1. Singer. lol
2. musicial, as in symphony orchestra o_o
3. Band Director *nerdy grin*

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:

1. The UK
2. New Zealand -- To see the Shire!
3. Hawaii -- I've never been there

THREE KID'S NAMES:

1. Veronica
2. Suzie
3. James

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:

1. Find my significant other
2. Live a successful and happy life
3. Learn how to speak elvish

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO DO THIS MEME

1. I really don't care
2. ^-^
3. wtf mate?